Cyrano de Bergerac

I use this blog a lot for self expression.  And at times, some of my readers leave great encouraging comments.  I truly appreciate that. 

I'm sitting at home by myself studying for Step 1, a little disappointed things didn't work out with that new, fantastic girl.  I feel like I parallel the fictional Cyrano de Bergerac's life often. 

So here I am, tired, alone, rethinking career options. A lot of first world problems, but someday I would love to have it figured out and see my labor bear something good.

I'm almost 3 years single, which makes me feel like a complete winner.  Then someone will say I need to love myself and all kinds of pop psychology phrases, but they forget that all I really want is a genuine connection with someone who isn't a patient or colleague. 

Life is so tiring, the hours of the day racing away like the water in a stream. I feel like I'm just gripping the remnants of my youth as tightly as I can.

Alone, tired, hungry, busy: my life over the past few years.  May things look up, may I be happier, more relaxed.