Walking home.  Haven't felt this exhausted in a long time.  The longer I stay in medicine it seems the more I want to leave it. I think about walking away from it often. It's not like anyone would miss me or has been begging me to stay.  I could do something different but I guess I'd need more solid plans and probably backup plans.  I wish I could be numb to all the bad personalities in medicine, that could make a difference.  I often feel like I don't matter as a doctor or person, but there gets to be a lot of paperwork if I want to take time off.  I feel like I can't win.  I remember being more full of life and personality than the current me. Maybe there isn't wellness in medicine the more I think about it.