I make a joke that I don't really know what self esteem is anymore. I felt sort of hopeless the past several weeks and unhappy with residency but I found someone to talk to who is about to graduate from my program, and I feel better and more enlightened after talking to them.
A lot of residents I know feel overworked, not very satisfied with their work, feel like interchangeable cogs in a giant machine, feel undervalued, and feel like they don't have a meaningful experience of being mentored.
Residency is tiring, the learning curve is steep. It's hard being a beginner surrounded by a lot of experts who criticize you more than mentor and help you. I see why so many people switch residencies or quit altogether.
Here's an article, if you're interested in a look at multiple studies on the following:
Prevalence of Depression and Depressive Symptoms Among Resident Physicians
I feel like the rest of residency will be clinging onto the hope that things will get better and that I'll feel okay and be valued someday.
You will be!
ReplyDeletei hope everything takes a turn for the better!
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