code blue

im tired.  i think i'll never be emotionally okay with codes.  this hospital is so hot and i spend the entire day sweating with matted hair and feeling dizzy and lightheaded from the insensible water loss and lack of time to eat decent food.   

I'm almost to the point of tears from exhaustion when i get home, which is really weird and something ive never felt before.  its embarassing and strange.

i never complain about anything during the work day though.  a lot of residents vent loudly, mostly about inefficiencies in the medical system or ridiculous consults and resource waste.