I have to admit to something I actually am a little sad about. I plan on entering a surgical field, because I love it and it's exciting. But also because I don't really have the rewarding social/married life so many other people have. I feel like working 80+ hours a week wouldn't be a change. I don't get invited to parties or these events all my mates go to, I'm not seeing anyone nor am I married. I come home to study, to put the kettle on and spend every night by myself.
So many people avoid surgery because of the long hours, but that's no difference to me. The longest I've ever worked straight was 56 hours, and I'm no stranger to working overnight after getting up at 5 in the morning. I've been wanting this deep connection with others since I began medical school, but just haven't gotten around to it. And it's not because I'm busy, actually. When I'm not busy, the opportunity doesn't come up, and when I'm not busy, the more I explore, the more I just don't find people who are multi-dimensional and interesting and well-rounded.
I feel like I live in a paper world much of the time, so many things flat and two-dimensional.
But you know, things get better, there's always an upside to things. There's always something to be happy about, something that makes you feel alive and things that give you purpose and meaning in your life.
Remember that life in medicine is a lot of sacrifice. Sacrifice that leads to break-ups, divorce, fights, bitterness, burn-out and depression, but you can always find a way to avoid those things or to get to the root of the problem and come out a better, happier person. Everyone struggles in this field but you're not alone.
You're here to heal the sick; it's a very unique thing not many can do.
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