Trying To Live Life to the Fullest

According to Dr. Pennebaker of the University of Texas at Austin, writing can be pretty therapeutic.  I have a feeling I'm going to be giving myself a lot of writing therapy over the next few years haha.

Anyway, I'm trying to live life to the fullest now before medical school starts and all that.  The thing is, I'm trying to better define what "the fullest" means for me.  I love coming home after work and just doing nothing, maybe playing video games, going through the iTunes store for new music, and playing my instruments every now and then.

The thing is, I'm sort of asking myself "is this the fullest?"  And yes, in case you're wondering, I am prone to existentialist crises, hah.

I feel sort of in a "funk" (I wish the George Clinton kind), since I don't have many friends here (I've moved back and all of my peers graduated and left), and life's sorta slow.  That probably sounds pretty pathetic, haha.  I guess blogging gives me an outlet, not only creative but I also kind of hope someone out there is reading and we're sort of "communicating" indirectly that way.

I guess part of it is also that I work in a lab, and I only really interact with 2 people day in and day out.  It wears on me, and I'm really glad I didn't choose a career in the lab, because it's not enough people-contact for me.  It sort of compounds the feeling of not having enough people to interact with on a daily basis, and not really having friends that are up for hanging out and all that.

I couldn't be more thankful that medical school is starting soon, and that I got in too.  I'm glad I can have a career where I interact with people all the time, help people get well, and bond with people who're working towards the same thing.  I know it'll be rough, stressful and probably scary at times going through medical school, but the pros definitely outweigh the negative parts.

I'm going to keep this blog anonymous.  I thought about going public and all that a few times, but I don't really feel that inclined.  Plus I think it'll let me feel more comfortable about venting, hah.