I've been trying to get myself to write a little more consistently.  Lately I've been falling asleep as soon as I get home on a regular work day or post call, without much time left to do anything else, except for taking care of my dog.

I think I take better care of my dog than myself, honestly.  She seems like the only good part of my life right now, since she's just a happy, comforting, loving dog.  We take a lot of naps together.  She just wants to see me and go on walks and I just want to be there taking care of her.

When I'm at work, I can't help but feel like being someone else.  I wish I could start over and have a different identity and different career.  It's an escapist dream.  I think of life being better and me being a positive person, I think of not being around people who make me feel bad about myself and take their stress out on me. 

I'm waiting for a positive, major transition phase in my life.  I'm not sure what it would be, but I wouldn't mind if it helped me get through these days.