Hey readers.
I'm mostly done with my surgery rotation, taking some time to just relax. I still eat my meals quickly and drink my water, coffee and tea like I'm on a time limit, but I'm on vacation. I'm trying to unlearn that until I get back into the very busy part of things.
I've finished a rotation where I was able to operate on children or be first assist, and I really enjoyed it. I feel sort of in the doldrums right now though, feeling like I'm lost, sailing away from a battle and looking for a place to anchor and rest, to rejuvenate and be warmed by the sun.
I have to work very hard these next couple of weeks and earn high marks on my surgery rotation, so I'm not cut out of the running of a good surgical program. It's stressful, reminding me of how basic sciences was.
I wish I had a more fulfilling social life, and that people I call my friends would invite me to spend time with them. I feel pretty easily forgotten or just not thought about, and that many don't take interest in me. I would spend more time on creative pursuits, but I have to work hard and study very much for the next few weeks. Things won't always stay like this, I think to myself.
I was going to share a song called Lately, by The Helio Sequence but came across this song. I'm deciding to post it instead, because it's happier. We have the option to stay melancholy, or to go seek things that make us happy or at least improve our mood a little bit. For some of us, it's therapeutic to have some time spent melancholy, but life is much better when you maximize the amount of your time feeling happy and relaxed.
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