I feel like I'm getting worse. I think my sadness feels a little more profound and a lot of the time I almost feel like I might fight back tears.
I've talked to other doctors, I've talked to friends, and I've talked to a specialist but I just don't know how to "get better."
I think things will get better but what I really need is for time to pass. I want to fast forward a year right now.
I wonder if writing about my negative feelings will help or if it just exercises them and they become stronger and more prominent. I feel pretty stuck.
Thanks for reading
Doc, please get some help. I've been through it too, residency can be so brutal. When there comes a time you just can't handle it alone then you need professional assistance. I've also experienced the neverending cycle of depressive thoughts but was able to break the negative process once I was prescribed an anti-depressant. Please seek help from a psych MD or a primary care who is comfortable with mental health treatment. Depression is treatable, you can feel like yourself again. Good luck, I'm on your side.
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ReplyDeletePsychologically. In the residency situation I think the only people who come out unphased must have some sociopathic tendencies or they are taking some antidepressants. Please get on meds if you need it. You can do this.