Started my day around 430am and hardly slept at all last night. I feel so worn out already and am doing my best to adapt to my new demands.
I'm doing my best to stay positive and the recent changes I made in my life are doing a lot for me. I started taking my dog out immediately once I get home and have been really patient and non-grouchy with my partner no matter how tired and stressed I am.
I feel like everyday of my training is like an academic version of the military: early days, late nights, long hours, high risk situations and constantly feeling tired and hungry while trying to survive in a highly hierarchical system. At least I haven't been shot at.
I feel like the expression of negativity by some team members sticks with me more than the positive effects of upbeat coworkers, which is something I need to take care of. I've seen a lot of depressed and stressed out residents and I really am scared of becoming like them. I'm constantly hoping I'll have some control over things and just handle things well day by day.
I'm already over-caffeinated by accident and feeling sick from it so I'm going to spend the next while trying to feel better at work. Here goes
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