I'm well-rested, hydrated, and just finished a meal. This sense of physical well-being is something I never got to experience very often during my medical training. It's rejuvenating.
Though I wonder often if I'll meet anyone I can really connect with in the near future. It's been almost 3 years since I've been in a real relationship with late night conversations, someone to eat and watch films with, someone excited to see me each time. I've had a string of first dates this year, a couple of second dates, but nothing I really wanted to pursue. And a lot of me getting rejected, blatantly at times. Which is weird, I guess, I'm just a humble, hard-working, bright young guy with a passion for the arts and of course, surgery. Honestly, as a guy, getting rejected by the more attractive girls hurts most.
One of my friends said I'll make a good surgeon, that I'll heal people and I'll become someone who is known and who matters. I think that would be neat. But you know, if you have a frayed heart and no one around you is really making you feel better, just spend some time out in the sun, listen to music you like. Feel whole again.
One of my favourite musicians says that we never really heal from a broken heart, we just learn to carry it gracefully. I don't have enough wisdom as he does, but I believe you can just give it time, and the frayed bits will eventually start to look and feel better. It's too easy to focus on things that get us down. Here's some music to get you out of bed, and back to smiling again.
Thank you for reading.
If you think it's hard for a male med student / doctor, think about your female colleagues. I think almost all of us have had guys running away from us just because they perceive us as more superior, and thus intimidating :(
ReplyDeleteDear Anna Elissa, thanks for your readership.
ReplyDeleteI've certainly heard things like that from my female colleagues. It's hard for me to understand because I find intelligent, hard-working girls attractive.
I can relate though because I've been told I'm intimidating because of "how smart" I am.
But it'll be okay, the right person will think your intellect and work ethic are amazing things, instead of a threat to their Y chromosome. And you'll be happy. No worries.